May the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows

My past anatomy tests were decent. The level of confidence was there...but for this test. ohh HELLL noooo. Im overwhelmed with all the nerves I need to know, all the parts of the brain and what they are responsible for and uhm the divisions of the peripharel nervous system.. and a whole lotta other shit. Than there is the urinary system..its NOT so bad i just need to keep teaching myself the process of urine formation and the hormones. But my GOD... im at a decent grade but what I hate about decent grades is that your at the border .. so when you do bad on a test your brought down from something that would have seemed a lot better. I still have test #5 and my anatomy exam to bump me up. but i know the exam is not going to bump me up..an exam either keeps you where u are at or brings you down. yes im a cynic..but hello this is anatomy and physiology...theres a hella lotta shiet to KNOW..that's right i used HELLA.. to emphasize how big of a deal this is.
I finished my essay the other night.. than i fixed it up a bit yesterday night.. and i completed it today. So I'm relieved. It's just a matter of me printing...shreddies proof read it thank god for her brilliance ;) bahh my life is so boring.. it's just a matter of me going to school and coming home. the excited part of me week that i look forward to is sick kids and probably when i go swimming. Speaking of sick kids.. i think i'll be leaving early this week. my boss called me in for work this thursday (i still need to confirm) so im going to work. homie ji is broke like a broken record. I would just love to work and study. seriously i got to give it those people who can balance that. but iunno i guess after all the shit that happened last year. i just want to do whatever i can to maintain what i have (nursing) and making sure i do it RIGHT! thus, the neglect on work..thus the decline in the income.
So my friend is going to go out of the country for the summer she was filling out forms for her passport. they needed a reference i believe that wasn't a relative. so we had to put down how long we've known each other for...after using my fingers to count turns out i've known for 7 years. im like holy shit i've known u for 1/3 of my life! it's just astonishing how fast time flies... 7 years ago i was in downtown. those days were simple... maybe it can be contributed to our innocence and naivety. funny things i remember from downtown:
- prostitutes fighting... it was amusing because it involved blood.
- my best friend and me would go to the library..there were study rooms. and she would throw her pencil over to the next study room (the wall didn't connect to the ceiling. remember down town people) and she'd go to the study room which was occupied by somone else.. ACTUALLY STUDYING and retrieve her pencil.
- once i dared my best friend (i'll call her shreds) to wear this fluorescent green wig and walk around the library.. LOL OMG she did.. i was laughin so frikken hard
-biking
-rec. swim ..diving in the deep.. hell yes i knew how to DIVE!
-roller blading
-once they filmed this movie in our buildings and everyone was so excited and our parents let us stay out late to watch them film.. don't know if the movie was THAT popular
-we got unto the railroads
-snuck on top of the garage ..got yelled at by some black lady to get off...the building was three storey high..mind you it was a big thanng!
-snuck into the abandoned swimming pool in our building.. it was closed.. and dark.. and probably haunted.. but i all i remember seeing was a rat scurry across when we shined the light.

oohh shit there’s probably more that i don't remember.. there's always strange people and strange things you encounter in down town.. why im reminiscing.. it was a goooood time. for that i will put this song to commemorate

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1nbvplgElw

I did it

LOL even though its 3 am, i managed to finish my essay. it's still teh rough draft though. and when i mean rough draft ..it's ROUGH. Grammatical mistakes, spelling errors EVERY WHERE. nevertheless, my ideas are in complete (crappy) sentences..so that's good enough for me. Im just going to look it over tomorow and fix it up to my best knowledge.

Gym: 2 lps 15 tm 30 e 30 su and 75 cr
not that im trying to be cryptic just lazy to get into details. i need to keep it down somewhere.

I don't get it...

Seriously.. I can't think of anything to write about.
I will just say this AAHFJKSBFdjsbgjd,sbgjdsbg;jsgj;kbfsg;jbfjgbfjkbfjdkvbjkfdbjfdbjfgbjvkfdbvjfvjbfdjvbfjdvjkfdvbjkfbvjdbjfbjfdb.
My BRAIN IS CONSTIPATED!!!!!
I feel stupid.. I don't know why. Don't mean to get personal.. but i guess I'm just second guessing myself on this essay I should just write what I feel. I mean it's on feminism I should be able to say SOMETHING!! But NOPE. And I'm seriously delaying the process of the essay. I know once I start going I will get somewhere but it's just a matter of getting past that threshold. Though I am glad to say I'm past introduction, neverthless I am NOT satisfied with it. It seems superficial.. lol if that's a proper word to call an introduction. ANd I seriously to get this out of my way because I have a frikken test on the NERVOUS SYSTEM AND THE URINARY SYSTEM. And believe me holy fuck shit nut case a ding ling BLUEBERRIES!! ... there are all these hormones that are intrically connected. *sigh* Why is that when I write here everything just flows.. like a normal bowel movement! Okay I need some self-confidence! I WILL finish my essay tomorow (atleast the rough draft), and I will manage to go to the gym and to the temple. Jesus christ ..that's another thing... my body. You know what.. NO COMMENT I'm not even going to go there! I don't get why people say don't use the Lord's name in VAIN.. then who's name should I use when im in pain Barney the dinosaur? Seriously... this Jesus dude gives me some sort of COMFORT when I say his name..you know a pain relief.
Here's Jesus and Shiva on Family guy:
God I love this clip!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WzfTd7_5hE&NR=1

perfect timing biden...

This is a big fuckin' deal.

Well it's kind of nice to know that politicians are humans and not programmed well-mannered,public-speaking, perfect, flawless evil robots...who have a hidden agenda to secretly profit and yet appear to be superwomen or superman =O OR ARE THEY?! ohh snaap =|

Utilitarianism

You've lost your brother/sister to AIDS.
They were infected by a killer strain given by a one night stand.
This killer strain is resistent to any medical treatment.
Is it justifiable to kill the person with the killer strain to prevent the deaths of many others?
You can say-> One person doesn't matter ...your saving many!
BUT
Would you kill your brother/sister if they had killer strain?
Don't people engaging in sexual activities have a responsibility in prevention and not taking any risks?

Didi

"Republican leaders, meantime, vowed to repeal the legislation in the event they recapture control of Congress in the mid-term elections in November. They have assailed Obama's health-care overhaul for a year, with one describing it as the president's "Waterloo," and warned the Democrats will pay the ultimate price in eight months for pushing through the legislation."
Source: http://news.ca.msn.com/world/cp-article.aspx?cp-documentid=23693811

I'm a skeptic... but it's good to hear that FINALLY they have some sort of health care after all these years. As I read the article many politicians expressed how they were called the N-word or faggot. Like seriously? I know Canada almost similiar to these kinds of stuff but really? =\

Anyways check out this really cool video from green peace.
http://www.greenpeace.org/international/campaigns/climate-change/kitkat

I did it..

I made the video for jojo! =] I put up on youtube hehee...
here's the link:

Check it out and comment!! :)

Click HERE to see the video!

fatigue

Why is it when the weather changes I get a cold? And I hate it when people say "Oh u have such a crappy immune system" NO I DON'T! I AM HEALTHY. ok lol I love my random anger outbursts. Oh well so I’m just trying to heal this cold before it gets worse. But then again I’m not sure if its allergies, which I highly doubt. That usually comes for me in June. Its funny my brother and I both get allergies but it occurs in different months.

I had to do my 1hr physical activity for my project. I figured I can write down everything here so when it comes to composing my logs and report I can always look back on this. Me being and IDIOT, suggested to my bf “Hey why don't we ride bikes today?(this was yesterday) It's beautiful weather!”...then of course I had my unfortunate epiphany moment of biking all the way from my house to beach/bluffs. Mind you the distance is like 15 km (yah I sat on mapquest calculating the distance) Now I’m sitting here wondering what if my prof. thinks im bullshitting? I’m in fucking pain… My ass bones are hurting because I don’t have no cushion on my bike seat. But yeah that was a MISSION. I gotta say I’m proud I did it. Coming back from the beach we didn't ride all the way we walked some parts because of uphills. BUT HOLY SHIT FUCK NUT PEPPERONI IM SORE. Cleary I

Anyways I've included a few photos I took at the beach. Not that great but meh.. the third one looks like a palm and fingers with a missing thumg.. =\

I’m going to make this video of Jojo. Lol he's become the object of my camera. So I hope to post that with some photos I took.

I used to have this bowl where I used to keep him in when I cleaned the tank. Well I felt like a mother feels when her child takes his/hers first few steps. What happened was I keep him in this bowl when I clean the tank. I used this bowl since he was a baby. Of course he's out grown but he still doesn’t have that muscle strength to get out of the bowl. WELL I underestimated him. I came into the room with a bucket full of water and to my surprise I found him on the floor! :| LOL I then just let him walk around the room (even though I don’t like him doing that when he's shedding and there might be chance of infection). I came back with ANOTHER bucket full of water he was no where to be found. When I looked under the bed I found him there...all the way at the back.. OUT OF MY REACH. Im just like WTF?!

Anyways I hate that rihanna's new song.. Something about a "rude boy" to "take it" (take what?) and then she proceeds to sing how tonight she wants it hard and wants him to pull her hair. Now I get it we all have our fetishes =\ but uhmm after her situation should she be singing about how she wants a guy to be all aggressive sexually. Nevertheless, it's all part of the attraction game. Chris brown sang about "I can transform you" some time after the Riana case. I guess this it what they want in the end…to be spoken about.

In more important news... TTC is under deliberation (I haven't seen updates) whether they should fire the bus driver who was driving erratic and not following the bus route. Police was called and administered a breathalyser. The results of her test showed that it was not at the threshold of 0.8 for it to be considered "impaired driving". It was, however, hovering between 0.5-0.8. Back in 2008 a bus driver was fired for impaired driving. His was obviously beyond the legal limit. He was driving 11:30 am impaired. Its FUCKING MORNING FOR GODS SAKE! I’m personally confused on the standing because I’m not sure how effective 0.5 is one’s driving. Nevertheless, TTC drivers are PUBLIC SERVENTS. Not firing her is saying it's ok for cops, paramedics and nurses to be at 0.5 when they are on duty. I'm sure no one would want the paramedic driving the ambulance that their loved one is in to the emergency... at 0.5 level! So what the hell? It's annoying .. I get Toronto is a growing city and there are constant demands that need to be met by the TTC. But when you see TTC drivers asleep (which is understandable to some degree) and drunk TTC drivers (which is not understandable), you gotta wonder WHERE THE FUCK IS MY MONEY GOING? When a bus driver chooses to drink and drive a bus full of the public he/she is putting their lives at risk. And buses aren't tiny little cars... if there is an impact other cars will be totalled. ON TOP OF THAT… ttc buses don't have seatbelts... so there's so many implications. If they don't fire her how are we 100% sure she won't do it again?

Correlation

Well another school week has gone by. Tomorrow I have to volunteer at the children’s hospital. It’s also going to be beautiful weather just like today. In psych we got this assignment about healthy living. We have a practical and theoretical component. So we chose one of the four pillars of healthy living (eating healthy, exercise, maintaining healthy body weight and not smoking). Healthy body weight is more of long term thing so it was off the list. Not smoking doesn’t apply to me. I chose exercise since it will motivate me. According to Health Canada to be ideally healthy you got to exercise for 1hr 7 days a week. That’s what I will be doing and I also have to keep a log. Today I started of with running and walking for 1 hr. It felt good to just go to the park and listen to your music as you walk. Running was annoying because the headphones kept falling out of my ears(damn small ear holes).Oh! and my legs starting like burning. I screamed at my legs “DAMN YOU LACTIC ACID”. Ok lol I didn’t but I was singing loudly to mama mia and I think I creeped out an old man. Oh and why is that when you smile at adults they smile back? But when I smile at a kid (with NO SEXUAL and pedophilic intentions..SHEESH) they get all nervous. GOSH KID I ain’t gonna kidnap you. it’s really motivating in a sense. I don’t think I’ll stick to one exercise for the 7 days. I haven’t gone swimming for two weeks so I guess I’ll incorporate that.

I watched a Law and Order SVU episode today. Main point I want to get at is about this lady who lived in Congo. During her time there she was raped multiple times by militants and men who were not punished for rape. She saw countless women being rape right before her! Being raped once is unfortunate as it is…but multiple times and seeing it everyday! Does it become a norm? That’s what I wondered and I just can conclude no. You just become so numb of course it hurts. After seeing that episode I valued our country, our level of morality and the justice system. I mean yes Canada has its down falls and it probably fucks up. It’s also probably doing a lot of shit to the planet that it shouldn’t. But 5 year old girls don’t have to see there mothers being raped by 5 men and then get raped by the same 5 men as well. Maybe it has happened...but it’s a lot less prominent and I’m thankful for that.

I put a log piece in Jojo’s tank and that did not suit well. He’d occasionally swim around the tank and go sniff the log. But nothing more..it was just invasive. I got rid of it so he can have more swimming space. He’s shedding like CRAZY… it’s not just his feet.. his head, his shell, I haven’t seen any on his arms though. Therefore, the tank is starting to stink a lot faster. My bro walked into the room and said my room stunk. Like his smells any better with the dirty socks and all.

Oh yeah today’s st.patricks day..I don’t know much about it except people wear green. When I do think bout patty’s day this is my train of thought …very simple: St.patricks day--> Irish-->Collin Farrel-->mmmmmmm-> Collin Farrel…..->leperchaun->Luckycharms->mmm marshmallows. I know I’m quite primitive.

Well that’s it for now I should get to bed… tomorrow morning will be a big mission. I am not a moooooooorning person!

stolen hour

What do you see in Jojo's shell? I see a frog with extra large upper limbs, a witch, a skull, an native person holding a European by the collar, a lightening bolt, an Indian girl in a hat and a salwar, and two penguines in a heated argument. Am I high? No! =\ Am I making up BS? I seriously see these things!! Ahh I hope I'm not crazy.. Yeah so my breaks over. I am not looking forward to re-adjustment.
Stupid DST deprived me of sleep. Well anyways I found this nice link about an animated documentary: http://films.nfb.ca/tying-your-own-shoes/index.php

Down syndrome is accepted and embraced by many communities today. Nevertheless, it's mentally and physically demanding for the families and those with it.I don't want to be so redundant on the issues of mental disabilities and children. But the clip was very sweet and brought a smile to my face so I had to share it with others.

I saw Lady gaga's new video telephone.. seriously random. One thing I got to give Gaga is her originality and uniqueness despite the weird looks she gets. Nevertheless, her flashy coture and her excessively thin body frame (where there has been reports of irregular heart rate) is just adding to your typical mainstream media. *sigh* will it ever change? maybe? Nevertheless, your typical photos of girls half naked will stump a chubby girl claiming how she's confident and beautiful. It's cynical, it's true BUT WE NEED MORE OF IT. Certain places in the world prefer women that are more thick. Why? it is said that they can bear children and the birth process is less complicated than of those with narrow hips. But of course in the male dominated world we want women to be fragile , weak and easy to break like a twig.
Oh yeah, there were like a few references two Michael Jackson in the video. What bothers me is why do people all of sudden shine so much light on MJ after he's dead? It's just annoying because many magazine and news reports will go on about the flaws of MJ. This probably contributing factor to his mental health. that drove him to take so many drugs. Now all of a sudden he passed away and everyone was frikken SAD. yes it was a shock..but I hate the fact everyone's got to flip flop from one side to another. BAHH! I guess that's media for you fulfilling the desire of the many readers just so the can get business. And we as a society are fickle to just give into these influences. Wow I sound like a broken record but there's only so much one can do.
And why do celeb. have these drug problems? Like I don't get it..I understand experimenting. But then there are those who get addicted. I can see it as a norm. for normal people.. because we have something to stress about! Im trying to see it on both sides. Normal people turn to drugs because we lack money and live impovershed conditions. Celebs. have to meet the demands of showing this illusion of perfection. They need to maintain an image to remain in the public eye. Some are better off, they have money and they don't need the attention (for example victoria beckham, who made the best out of her career as a spice girl) I also notice sometimes celebs. will just surface outta no where to promote a movie, album release etc. Nevertheless, I think I'd respect a celeb. more if she or he came out and said; "hey Im human I got flaws and I have my bad days!" and quit this crap about being oh so glamorous. FUck that shit..everyone knows that is all fake shit.

My First Non-Human Baby! =O

Jojo's shell..what a beautiful design and it's all natural!

Baby Jojo swimming around his tank!

In the palm of my hands!
Following photos edited by me:

Photo Edited by Ami: The Blueprint

Photo Edited by: Ami; Swoosh

Photo Edited by: Ami: Grumpy Jojo

Photo Edited by: Ami; Sun Tan

WOOOOOOOOOOO WOMEN!

Just looking through some random articles and came across an article on female CEOs.

http://www.investopedia.com/articles/financialcareers/09/top-female-ceos.asp?partner=msnca

these women have made it past the "glass window" and making it easier and motivating for those starting at the bottom. Now I'm not in business but they've raised the standards for women! so wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!! =]

Bellbottoms

ahh what a gloomy day. the past two days was just beautiful with the sun shining, birds chirping all that ladelalalaaaaaaa. I haven't really done much today, cleaned Jojo’s tank and went to the doctor. Thankfully the filter DOES NOT MAKE THAT ANNOYING SOUND. Oh my jeebusss for the past few weeks the filter was making this rattling sound in Jojo's tank. I didn't know what it was. I took it out a few times, turned it off NOTHING. So today I cleaned everything up and put in some new water. He should be happy. Next few days are going to be grey with rain. Oh man my break is almost done. LOL I really should study and get some work done. Hmm maybe after a nap? (Procrastination at its best) You know it’s really hard to study when there’s no motivation to push you! Ok now I’m making excuses.

Hehe I love Foamy the squirrel here’s one on fashion:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXRxzh22oAg

oh ye how come they don't call bellbottoms..bellbottoms anymore at the stores. Now they use words like Flare, boot cut...sheesh stop making shopping more complicated than it already is!

staring contest.

So I'm sitting here having a staring contest with Jojo. He seems to be poking his head out of the water and staring at me..VERY INTENSLY..that it sorta creeps me out and makes me feel wanted. WOW! Speaking of amphibians and reptiles I was just reading an article in the Globe and Mail:

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/technology/science/weed-killer-can-turn-male-frogs-into-females-study-finds/article1485580/

Basically, to sum it up in a few words, weed killers(made of artazine) are turning male frogs into female. Now it was pretty funny. But when you look at the big picture.. HOLY SHIT. Imagine consuming a life time worth of this water! Now some people would be like oh who cares?? "It's just the frogs and rats(one strain of rats were found having mammary tumours because of artazine) messed up by this." Rats and humans have a common ancestor so I'm pretty sure our genetic variations aren't off. It ain't easy the whole issue with our environment.. It's hard to change when we go accustom to something convenient and cheap. I guess the main issue is why is North American countries still using artazine? It has been banned in Europe! We're paving our path to self-destruction. It's sad. Highly chemicalized and hygienic (sanitizers AREN'T that necessary) lifestyles are probably one of the reasons why we have viruses and diseases that just can't be treated. There are so many bacteria out there that are resistant to the treatments. There are so many people taking antibiotics, antibacterial, antifungal etc. and just pissing it out into our water system. Then other people consume it.. its goes into our food...or lakes and we have shit that we just don’t need in our body.

Frogs creep me out though. I don’t know why they look like a naked turtle.

You know what I always wondered..

Why do people on TV always wear shoes in the house? Especially on Full House. As a kid I'd sit there perplexed staring at the screen.

Yeah so new blog(encouraged by the best friend)..this one filters out the emotional personal crap. Or atleast I try to...I had this fucked up dream that I was infertile. When I told my bf this he consoled me for a few mins, started dozing off and farted loudly..twice. But meh..it was funny when he farted.

Fertility seems to be a big issue nowadays. I remember reading this one book about a lady CRAZY and DETERMINED to get pregnant. My conclusion stop stressin' start sexin'. I know there is pressure, you got all these familiy members breathing down your neck while your in this erotic position with your husband or the other pretty sister who's fuckin' popping out babies.

Well, today is my first day on March Break, luckily I finished my English Presentation over the weekend. It's just a matter of me presenting it to my lab rats before to get some feedback. It'd be weird if I actually had lab rats in my room. My room already smells funky as it is with Jojo (my pet red ear slider turtle) in here.

So lately, I've been thinking about some pretty "uhm oh shit what do I do?" life scenarios. Like if you screen your baby's genes and you find out they have disability..would you still have the child? What if the syndrome was in their spine and they felt PAIN..all...the..fucking..TIME? Yes, you can give the child drugs..but that only reduces it..there still is pain! Or something pretty common like Down Syndrome..do you still have the kid?

This lady at work thought that me and my boyfriend were siblings..fuck! =|