the awkward moment when a couple is mistaken for siblings.
I got that alot with my ex. =\
I was suppose to go kayaking today. That was a flop. My mom needed me to drop her off in downtown. Mind you it's a pain driving in downtown, especially where I used to live. Crazy people and drivers. By the time I got back it was too late. So, came home, ate, packed my bag and went hiking. I spent a good amount of time there. It was ridiculosuly peaceful and I lavished every second. I ate my snack, walked some more for a bit, used the bathroom (it's hard finding a bathroom when your on the trails), sat down to write in my journal and started the hike again.. All those crazy thoughts that fly about in your head just settle down. I kept walking and climbing until it began getting dark. Then I headed back to my car. I didn't even notice how tired I was until I got home. I got some photos, they were okay.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
painting
So I decided to get a little creative, chose a random photo in my albums (coincidentally it was the owl) and I worked on it. I used Adobe Photoshop CS4, listened to my ipod and let my imagination work its magic. What I really like about the turn out is the the owls feathers are patterned in a way that resembles a tiger. hmm..pretty neat.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
infliction
OversharerImpairedgiverDoormatUnnoticed
Grab the cement paste and the bricks, it's time to put up the walls.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
it went well
I was nervous about going on the hike today. Lol I even had this anxiety attack kick in going on my own. I worried on what others might think, but getting there it wasn't as bad as it seemed. There were even few other people there on their own. I got some really good shots. My favourite one is the one above of the owl. Pretty eerie but still a good shot. :)
finger11- whatever doesn't kill me
Whatever doesn't kill me
Doesn't make me stronger
But I'm not gonna give up yet
And if these walls should weaken
I'm still strong enough to know
I'm gonna build them up again
Doesn't make me stronger
But I'm not gonna give up yet
And if these walls should weaken
I'm still strong enough to know
I'm gonna build them up again
Miss USA 2011- Should Evolution be taught in schools?
It sucks that they are equating Evolution as if it's a belief system. That's not the case, there are countless research and evidence to prove the theory behind Evolution. It's not a religion.
Friday, August 26, 2011
guys
Two things that guys do that annoys me:
- Overuse the word "bro"
- Do their eyebrowsto the point that it's obvious.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Albus
“Tell me one last thing,” said Harry. “Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?”
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?”
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?”
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
back
I am back from camping and still very exhausted. It was a fun trip aside from the crappy weather. The coldness was the type that made your muscles ache in the morning and water was dripping into our tent. Regardless we got to do some fun things like hiking, going to the beach, our attempt to fish, canoeing, making smores, and of course getting drunk in our tent. LOL Now it's just a matter of adjusting to the fact that I'm going to have nothing to do for the next week or two. Which I don't mind but just not looking forward to getting used to it and only having to go back to school. I have to meet up with a few people to catch up before school starts too.
I guess the time away and my best friend's bitching helped me realize somethings. I am thinking way too much into things. What really stuck in my head was when she said see if he's worthy to even be with you . Which was really true, I fail to think that and jump ahead. So it was a good reality check.
My grandmother was supposed to have an appointment with a lung specialist. It was annoying because it was picking and prodding at my head for most of the trip. I then come back and find out that we can't make the appointment with the specialist her doctor has to do it for her and get hr in through referral. I know it was just monday yesterday but it would be nice to get her in so we can get whatever treatment necessary soon. I guess since her symptoms are not so severe they are holding off. But what if it is cancer? Isn't better to do soon before it spreads. Hmm...
I'll call the doctors today and ask them. I hate her doctor's though, they are just so disorganized.
I guess the time away and my best friend's bitching helped me realize somethings. I am thinking way too much into things. What really stuck in my head was when she said see if he's worthy to even be with you . Which was really true, I fail to think that and jump ahead. So it was a good reality check.
My grandmother was supposed to have an appointment with a lung specialist. It was annoying because it was picking and prodding at my head for most of the trip. I then come back and find out that we can't make the appointment with the specialist her doctor has to do it for her and get hr in through referral. I know it was just monday yesterday but it would be nice to get her in so we can get whatever treatment necessary soon. I guess since her symptoms are not so severe they are holding off. But what if it is cancer? Isn't better to do soon before it spreads. Hmm...
I'll call the doctors today and ask them. I hate her doctor's though, they are just so disorganized.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Jack Layton's letter
Jack Layton's final letter to all Canadians, dated Saturday, Aug. 20, 2011, two days before he died:
Dear Friends,
Tens of thousands of Canadians have written to me in recent weeks to wish me well. I want to thank each and every one of you for your thoughtful, inspiring and often beautiful notes, cards and gifts. Your spirit and love have lit up my home, my spirit, and my determination.
Unfortunately my treatment has not worked out as I hoped. So I am giving this letter to my partner Olivia to share with you in the circumstance in which I cannot continue.
I recommend that Hull-Aylmer MP Nycole Turmel continue her work as our interim leader until a permanent successor is elected.
I recommend the party hold a leadership vote as early as possible in the New Year, on approximately the same timelines as in 2003, so that our new leader has ample time to reconsolidate our team, renew our party and our program, and move forward towards the next election.
A few additional thoughts:
To other Canadians who are on journeys to defeat cancer and to live their lives, I say this: please don’t be discouraged that my own journey hasn’t gone as well as I had hoped. You must not lose your own hope. Treatments and therapies have never been better in the face of this disease. You have every reason to be optimistic, determined, and focused on the future. My only other advice is to cherish every moment with those you love at every stage of your journey, as I have done this summer.
To the members of my party: we’ve done remarkable things together in the past eight years. It has been a privilege to lead the New Democratic Party and I am most grateful for your confidence, your support, and the endless hours of volunteer commitment you have devoted to our cause. There will be those who will try to persuade you to give up our cause. But that cause is much bigger than any one leader. Answer them by recommitting with energy and determination to our work. Remember our proud history of social justice, universal health care, public pensions and making sure no one is left behind. Let’s continue to move forward. Let’s demonstrate in everything we do in the four years before us that we are ready to serve our beloved Canada as its next government.
To the members of our parliamentary caucus: I have been privileged to work with each and every one of you. Our caucus meetings were always the highlight of my week. It has been my role to ask a great deal from you. And now I am going to do so again. Canadians will be closely watching you in the months to come. Colleagues, I know you will make the tens of thousands of members of our party proud of you by demonstrating the same seamless teamwork and solidarity that has earned us the confidence of millions of Canadians in the recent election.
To my fellow Quebecers: On May 2nd, you made an historic decision. You decided that the way to replace Canada’s Conservative federal government with something better was by working together in partnership with progressive-minded Canadians across the country. You made the right decision then; it is still the right decision today; and it will be the right decision right through to the next election, when we will succeed, together. You have elected a superb team of New Democrats to Parliament. They are going to be doing remarkable things in the years to come to make this country better for us all.
To young Canadians: All my life I have worked to make things better. Hope and optimism have defined my political career, and I continue to be hopeful and optimistic about Canada. Young people have been a great source of inspiration for me. I have met and talked with so many of you about your dreams, your frustrations, and your ideas for change. More and more, you are engaging in politics because you want to change things for the better. Many of you have placed your trust in our party. As my time in political life draws to a close I want to share with you my belief in your power to change this country and this world. There are great challenges before you, from the overwhelming nature of climate change to the unfairness of an economy that excludes so many from our collective wealth, and the changes necessary to build a more inclusive and generous Canada. I believe in you. Your energy, your vision, your passion for justice are exactly what this country needs today. You need to be at the heart of our economy, our political life, and our plans for the present and the future.
And finally, to all Canadians: Canada is a great country, one of the hopes of the world. We can be a better one – a country of greater equality, justice, and opportunity. We can build a prosperous economy and a society that shares its benefits more fairly. We can look after our seniors. We can offer better futures for our children. We can do our part to save the world’s environment. We can restore our good name in the world. We can do all of these things because we finally have a party system at the national level where there are real choices; where your vote matters; where working for change can actually bring about change. In the months and years to come, New Democrats will put a compelling new alternative to you. My colleagues in our party are an impressive, committed team. Give them a careful hearing; consider the alternatives; and consider that we can be a better, fairer, more equal country by working together. Don’t let them tell you it can’t be done.
My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.
All my very best,
Jack Layton
http://livenews.thestar.com/Event/Jack_Layton_dead_at_61
Dear Friends,
Tens of thousands of Canadians have written to me in recent weeks to wish me well. I want to thank each and every one of you for your thoughtful, inspiring and often beautiful notes, cards and gifts. Your spirit and love have lit up my home, my spirit, and my determination.
Unfortunately my treatment has not worked out as I hoped. So I am giving this letter to my partner Olivia to share with you in the circumstance in which I cannot continue.
I recommend that Hull-Aylmer MP Nycole Turmel continue her work as our interim leader until a permanent successor is elected.
I recommend the party hold a leadership vote as early as possible in the New Year, on approximately the same timelines as in 2003, so that our new leader has ample time to reconsolidate our team, renew our party and our program, and move forward towards the next election.
A few additional thoughts:
To other Canadians who are on journeys to defeat cancer and to live their lives, I say this: please don’t be discouraged that my own journey hasn’t gone as well as I had hoped. You must not lose your own hope. Treatments and therapies have never been better in the face of this disease. You have every reason to be optimistic, determined, and focused on the future. My only other advice is to cherish every moment with those you love at every stage of your journey, as I have done this summer.
To the members of my party: we’ve done remarkable things together in the past eight years. It has been a privilege to lead the New Democratic Party and I am most grateful for your confidence, your support, and the endless hours of volunteer commitment you have devoted to our cause. There will be those who will try to persuade you to give up our cause. But that cause is much bigger than any one leader. Answer them by recommitting with energy and determination to our work. Remember our proud history of social justice, universal health care, public pensions and making sure no one is left behind. Let’s continue to move forward. Let’s demonstrate in everything we do in the four years before us that we are ready to serve our beloved Canada as its next government.
To the members of our parliamentary caucus: I have been privileged to work with each and every one of you. Our caucus meetings were always the highlight of my week. It has been my role to ask a great deal from you. And now I am going to do so again. Canadians will be closely watching you in the months to come. Colleagues, I know you will make the tens of thousands of members of our party proud of you by demonstrating the same seamless teamwork and solidarity that has earned us the confidence of millions of Canadians in the recent election.
To my fellow Quebecers: On May 2nd, you made an historic decision. You decided that the way to replace Canada’s Conservative federal government with something better was by working together in partnership with progressive-minded Canadians across the country. You made the right decision then; it is still the right decision today; and it will be the right decision right through to the next election, when we will succeed, together. You have elected a superb team of New Democrats to Parliament. They are going to be doing remarkable things in the years to come to make this country better for us all.
To young Canadians: All my life I have worked to make things better. Hope and optimism have defined my political career, and I continue to be hopeful and optimistic about Canada. Young people have been a great source of inspiration for me. I have met and talked with so many of you about your dreams, your frustrations, and your ideas for change. More and more, you are engaging in politics because you want to change things for the better. Many of you have placed your trust in our party. As my time in political life draws to a close I want to share with you my belief in your power to change this country and this world. There are great challenges before you, from the overwhelming nature of climate change to the unfairness of an economy that excludes so many from our collective wealth, and the changes necessary to build a more inclusive and generous Canada. I believe in you. Your energy, your vision, your passion for justice are exactly what this country needs today. You need to be at the heart of our economy, our political life, and our plans for the present and the future.
And finally, to all Canadians: Canada is a great country, one of the hopes of the world. We can be a better one – a country of greater equality, justice, and opportunity. We can build a prosperous economy and a society that shares its benefits more fairly. We can look after our seniors. We can offer better futures for our children. We can do our part to save the world’s environment. We can restore our good name in the world. We can do all of these things because we finally have a party system at the national level where there are real choices; where your vote matters; where working for change can actually bring about change. In the months and years to come, New Democrats will put a compelling new alternative to you. My colleagues in our party are an impressive, committed team. Give them a careful hearing; consider the alternatives; and consider that we can be a better, fairer, more equal country by working together. Don’t let them tell you it can’t be done.
My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.
All my very best,
Jack Layton
http://livenews.thestar.com/Event/Jack_Layton_dead_at_61
Thursday, August 18, 2011
celebrate
Went out with the school friends last night. Sitting her on my bed with my head and body drained of energy. Maybe I should eat? I feel naseous. I can't even recall the last time feeling nausea as a symptom of hangover? Maybe first or second year. Usually I just get body fatigue and to the most a headache. It was a really fun night though! Lol we got into some weird conversations. One I specifically remember is about having female and male friends. I was saying that, yes you should have friends of both genders. I feel that with girls you have this sense of connectedness almost like a sisterhood. Of course this depends on your "friends" too, if the person has negative attributes to the friendship, then that emotional support from a female friend is not established. With male friends its more about letting go. As females we worry too much about what others think. With the guys, your just one of the guys. You can say and do whatever you want. There is no hidden grudges and secrets. (Or atleast with the guys I've interacted.) It's more about cracking jokes and having a good time.
I had to go with my brother shopping because he needed to get some clothes before going of to university. I ended up buying underwear from Aerie. Mind you these were some hard core girly panties; Floral, cute polka dots, pastels, and even lace on two of them! I don't know what possessed me but they were just so pretty. Today I'm going to do some last minute shopping for camping and I'm going grab some bras. As I scavenged through the neatly arranged piles of under garments in the store I was having some sort of power struggle. Why am I getting this? Why do I need these pretty underwear? No one is going to see them but myself, so what is the point? But I guess I just wanted to treat myself and just be out of the ordinary. Now I know it's weird that I'm even blogging about this but I think the main point is why should I even think like that? Does one have to be sexually active to own pretty under garments? No of course not, anyone is entitled to just feel good inside and out. After shopping I intend onf coming home cleaning up my room and start packing. *sigh* It's going to be crazy, nevertheless the weekend will be fun, I need to get out of this place for a bit.
Well, I guess this will be the first time I'm blogging about this and it's so weird. Him and I have been texting back and forth. It hasn't really progressed to "actual" conversations but more like getting to know each other on a friend level and cracking jokes. I like it and I think I'm interested but we'll see. I'm in no rush for anything. Nevertheless, I'd like to get to know him better. Wow it feels so weird typing this out. I think I'm so cautious that I have these weird power struggles. I keep telling myself and those close to me all these possibly negative things about him.(which aren't true but just my assumptions). It's my defense mechanism to never let my guards down. I'm scared I will let them down, in fact I'm scared they are going down. I don't want to get hurt, disappointed or humiliated for the matter. I know we should all go with the flow and enjoy life experiences, but I've been through some serious crap. I've struggled with getting over the break up and getting myself together that I don't want to be back and feel that pain and despair ever again. I know pain is inenvitable and we need to just let go and try. But that's all crap that I keep saying to myself. Right now I can just be spazzing out because like I said, it's just texting. Maybe I am infatuated? Maybe that's it. Like I was saying, I've gotten much progress and felt a sense of growth within myself. I finally feel good about me, both inside and out. What if getting involved with someone I lose myself yet again? I definately know better this time around but I don't want to be dependent and attached. I think I have a tendency of being like that so I'm not ready. I guess I can just take it one step at a time and make time for myself and not let him or others be the centre of my life. It's about prioritzing yourself and others. How it works was after the break up you learn to put your life back together and then you learn how to put yourself back together. After that, I think it's more like fine-tuning your other relationships and important aspects in life. Then it's a matter of learning to be on your own and regaining that confidence and self-esteem. After that it's learning how to keep yourself true while maintaing other relationships (family, friends, dating etc.).
I had to go with my brother shopping because he needed to get some clothes before going of to university. I ended up buying underwear from Aerie. Mind you these were some hard core girly panties; Floral, cute polka dots, pastels, and even lace on two of them! I don't know what possessed me but they were just so pretty. Today I'm going to do some last minute shopping for camping and I'm going grab some bras. As I scavenged through the neatly arranged piles of under garments in the store I was having some sort of power struggle. Why am I getting this? Why do I need these pretty underwear? No one is going to see them but myself, so what is the point? But I guess I just wanted to treat myself and just be out of the ordinary. Now I know it's weird that I'm even blogging about this but I think the main point is why should I even think like that? Does one have to be sexually active to own pretty under garments? No of course not, anyone is entitled to just feel good inside and out. After shopping I intend onf coming home cleaning up my room and start packing. *sigh* It's going to be crazy, nevertheless the weekend will be fun, I need to get out of this place for a bit.
Well, I guess this will be the first time I'm blogging about this and it's so weird. Him and I have been texting back and forth. It hasn't really progressed to "actual" conversations but more like getting to know each other on a friend level and cracking jokes. I like it and I think I'm interested but we'll see. I'm in no rush for anything. Nevertheless, I'd like to get to know him better. Wow it feels so weird typing this out. I think I'm so cautious that I have these weird power struggles. I keep telling myself and those close to me all these possibly negative things about him.(which aren't true but just my assumptions). It's my defense mechanism to never let my guards down. I'm scared I will let them down, in fact I'm scared they are going down. I don't want to get hurt, disappointed or humiliated for the matter. I know we should all go with the flow and enjoy life experiences, but I've been through some serious crap. I've struggled with getting over the break up and getting myself together that I don't want to be back and feel that pain and despair ever again. I know pain is inenvitable and we need to just let go and try. But that's all crap that I keep saying to myself. Right now I can just be spazzing out because like I said, it's just texting. Maybe I am infatuated? Maybe that's it. Like I was saying, I've gotten much progress and felt a sense of growth within myself. I finally feel good about me, both inside and out. What if getting involved with someone I lose myself yet again? I definately know better this time around but I don't want to be dependent and attached. I think I have a tendency of being like that so I'm not ready. I guess I can just take it one step at a time and make time for myself and not let him or others be the centre of my life. It's about prioritzing yourself and others. How it works was after the break up you learn to put your life back together and then you learn how to put yourself back together. After that, I think it's more like fine-tuning your other relationships and important aspects in life. Then it's a matter of learning to be on your own and regaining that confidence and self-esteem. After that it's learning how to keep yourself true while maintaing other relationships (family, friends, dating etc.).
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
wise words
Was confiding with my cousin about some personal stuff. After a long time we are slowly beginning to get close again. I guess it's a matter of getting past the past.
"Be who you are, do what you like. And you'd be surprised how quickly you'll end up surrounding yourself with people that like you."
"Be who you are, do what you like. And you'd be surprised how quickly you'll end up surrounding yourself with people that like you."
letter to my loved one
Dear Liver,
I'd like to thank you in advance for putting up with the excessive consumption of booze, Advil and caffeine that you will have to process the next week or so due to cramming sessions and hangovers. Your support will not go disregarded I will try my best to consume as much broccoli and water to make up for it all.
P.S love you like a love song baby.
Sincerely,
Me
Readers:
Don't judge me, it's been a bitch of a semester. I'm entitled to indulge in alcoholic tendencies and cramming at the last minute for exams. Oh man...
I'd like to thank you in advance for putting up with the excessive consumption of booze, Advil and caffeine that you will have to process the next week or so due to cramming sessions and hangovers. Your support will not go disregarded I will try my best to consume as much broccoli and water to make up for it all.
P.S love you like a love song baby.
Sincerely,
Me
Readers:
Don't judge me, it's been a bitch of a semester. I'm entitled to indulge in alcoholic tendencies and cramming at the last minute for exams. Oh man...
Saturday, August 13, 2011
My First OR Experience
The experience is literally engraved in my head and it was unforgettable. I walked into the unit with my scrubs on, told me to change into the OR scrubs. They were SOOOO soft! I put on the booties for my shoes, the cap, my face mask and washed my hands. The OR is almost an oxymoron. There was this peace and tranquility and yet you can see a hurried tension to prepare the OR and get everything accurate. It was amazing. It was as if the thrill of the OR was calmed down by the focus needed to do the procedure. I stare at the surgeons wide-eyed as if they were rock stars as they did the procedure. They did two incisions and began inserting the port and camera to begin the procedure. There was a big screen TV displaying the inside of the patient. The scrub nurse was kick-ass. She had every piece of equipment ready before the surgeon asked for it. I loved every bit of it! The nurse who walked me through it was a nurse in the OR at Sick Kids. Yeah, I literally praised her as if she was my idol. I'm honestly considering OR nursing now. I know I know I'm switching my mind so much options but I wouldn't mind going to pediatric surgery but of course that's after a few years of experience.
So the surgery went quite well. It was great that I read up on the surgery prior to going in. I was in the recovery room with my patient observing what the nurses do. My patient looks at me and goes Did you do the surgery? I said No, I'm a nursing student and I watched the procedure. He then asked me how it went. The patient beside us was Tamil. He began talking to me to me in our language. Asking me questions like: What area I'm from in Sri Lanka, what school I go to, Where do I live now, Do I live with my parents, If I was married, How long does he have to stay in the recovery room, when he will start feeling the pain again etc etc. Obviously I never asked him them the same personal questions he asked me. Mind you he was 33 years old(I'm 22)! Then lastly he says to me in Tamil "Do you have a phone?" Yeah I replied confused. "why don't you give me your number?" And that, ladies and gentlemen when it hit me that this innocent conversation had different intentions. I was stunned and I politely said "No I can't give out to number to patients it's against my policy" Yes I could have said I wasn't interested because I wasn't. But LOL for some reason the first thing that popped to my head was rules and regulations. He then goes "I really liked talking to you, just say your number and I'll remember it" I said no I can't and turned back to talking to my patient. I tell my grandma this and she goes "you should have just lied and said 'sorry I have a boyfriend' (yup imagine an old lady with a thick Tamil accent saying that)" Then she proceeded on to advising me "You know, if a guy does approach you and you like him, then pursue it don't let him get away." I'm sitting there going what is going on in this world today?!?!
So the surgery went quite well. It was great that I read up on the surgery prior to going in. I was in the recovery room with my patient observing what the nurses do. My patient looks at me and goes Did you do the surgery? I said No, I'm a nursing student and I watched the procedure. He then asked me how it went. The patient beside us was Tamil. He began talking to me to me in our language. Asking me questions like: What area I'm from in Sri Lanka, what school I go to, Where do I live now, Do I live with my parents, If I was married, How long does he have to stay in the recovery room, when he will start feeling the pain again etc etc. Obviously I never asked him them the same personal questions he asked me. Mind you he was 33 years old(I'm 22)! Then lastly he says to me in Tamil "Do you have a phone?" Yeah I replied confused. "why don't you give me your number?" And that, ladies and gentlemen when it hit me that this innocent conversation had different intentions. I was stunned and I politely said "No I can't give out to number to patients it's against my policy" Yes I could have said I wasn't interested because I wasn't. But LOL for some reason the first thing that popped to my head was rules and regulations. He then goes "I really liked talking to you, just say your number and I'll remember it" I said no I can't and turned back to talking to my patient. I tell my grandma this and she goes "you should have just lied and said 'sorry I have a boyfriend' (yup imagine an old lady with a thick Tamil accent saying that)" Then she proceeded on to advising me "You know, if a guy does approach you and you like him, then pursue it don't let him get away." I'm sitting there going what is going on in this world today?!?!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
mother-daughter convo
Amidst excitedly gushing to my mother about me going to the OR, our convo. trailed off like this...
Me: OMG mom who needs MARRIAGE and A HUSBAND?! I can live like this! There's this rush amma (mom in Tamil)!
Mom: *Gasps and stares at me with wide eyes* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I want grandchildrenn!!!!
bahahaha I love her. Today was our last day at clinicals like I mentioned earlier. I had stepped in to say goodbye to a patient I've grown very fond of. She is the patient I literally walked alongside for weeks in recovery in her rehabilitation after hip and wrist surgery. I did my project on her and well we just got really close. I've mentioned her before, in my blogs, the one who reminds me of my best friend. So we sat there and talked and told her I had it is my last day. She is also being transferred over to another retirement home for one month until she regains complete strength to go back home. She has changed so much compared to when I first met her. She is able to walk to the washroom with her walker on her own and do much more for herself. I was so happy to see her much better. We said our goodbyes, her eyes watered.. and then my eyes watered. We both sat there staring at each other with watery eyes, my friend walks in sees us and walks out awkwardly lol. I hugged her good bye and she kissed me on the cheek. *sigh*YEs very cheesey but you know
Me: OMG mom who needs MARRIAGE and A HUSBAND?! I can live like this! There's this rush amma (mom in Tamil)!
Mom: *Gasps and stares at me with wide eyes* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I want grandchildrenn!!!!
bahahaha I love her. Today was our last day at clinicals like I mentioned earlier. I had stepped in to say goodbye to a patient I've grown very fond of. She is the patient I literally walked alongside for weeks in recovery in her rehabilitation after hip and wrist surgery. I did my project on her and well we just got really close. I've mentioned her before, in my blogs, the one who reminds me of my best friend. So we sat there and talked and told her I had it is my last day. She is also being transferred over to another retirement home for one month until she regains complete strength to go back home. She has changed so much compared to when I first met her. She is able to walk to the washroom with her walker on her own and do much more for herself. I was so happy to see her much better. We said our goodbyes, her eyes watered.. and then my eyes watered. We both sat there staring at each other with watery eyes, my friend walks in sees us and walks out awkwardly lol. I hugged her good bye and she kissed me on the cheek. *sigh*YEs very cheesey but you know
almost there
YAAAAAAAAAY! So I'm done my courses and clinicals. Tommorow I am going into the hospital but to watch a laparoscopic cholecystectomy (it's a surgery in which they remove the gallbladder). I am SOOO excited and pumped for it. After that it's a matter of exams. I'm going to studyyyy my ass off for today and the next few days so I can go out with the girls on saturday night. Then I'm finally looking forward to finishing off exams. My friends at school and I are planning on getting plastered and karokeeing once we finish exams. So hopefully that works out, it's much needed. =] woooooohoo! Then of course many stuff planned in the next few weeks to make up for a deprived summer such as kayaking with the best friend, camping with the girls and off course going on my butterfly trail walk. But yeah definately excited to have school done with. Trying not really to think of anything else but to work on what I got left to dowith school and enjoy the time with my loved ones.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
"Young Forever" Jay-Z | Mr. Hudson (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
"A child can teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires." -Paulo Coelho
Uncle kracker - Follow Me(Official Music Video)
Heard this on the radio this morning while I was eating an egg sandwhich and driving. I started singing along with food stuffed in my mouth. I pity those who had to see such a scene but it's such a chill song to jam along to.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Saturday, August 6, 2011
*sigh*
What a way to spend Friday night. Not to come off as selfish but I'm just saying. My grandfather has Alzheimer's Disease and seeing that it's great weather he tends to go for walks. He left at 5 pm and didn't return home at 7 his usual time for dinner and his meds. At 8:15pm I get a call from my other grandpa how he hasn't come home yet. I come home from the gym and get on my bike. I cycled around the neighbourhood and vicinity with no luck. By the time I reached back home it was 9:00 ish. That's when my dad came home and we called 911. There was 5 police cars parked outside my house. Two were under cover and the special unit came in to get my grandfather odour for search and rescue canine unit. Yeah I know! :| My aunt had come over, so did my cousin and also my uncle. The neighbours were wonderful and helped by driving around the area looking for him. The police said we could not leave the house. My brother had come home and left on bike before the cops arrive so he cycled around until 10 ish before coming home. The police spoke to me to explain the situation. And then a cop came in who spoke the same language as us. He then took down the info. speaking to my grandmother directly. A cop searched our whole house. And then two big guys in suits came in who were part of the CIB came in and searched the house. They even had helicopters searching the area with lights and an officer down with a map leading a search and rescue. My brother told me, they literally had the cop car in the park. The park that my grandfather goes to and we were afraid he went alone (because normally he goes only with my dad present) is a big park with a forest and a pond. Plenty of places to fall into and pass out. Mind you, he's on blood pressure medication on top of the Alzheimer's disease.
We were so overwhelmed with the kindness that the neighbours did to chip in and help. Same with the services provided by the York regional police officers. I know it's their "job" but honestly it means alot. We all sat there worried of the possibility of how we would find him. I know as we all sat there silently we were scared that something may have happened to him like what if fell in the pond and drowned. The messed up part is now that I think about it, is that that's how my cousin passed away by drowning. :S And then finally when speaking to an officer I heard a message on his walkie talkie, he then explained to me they found him. He was sitting on a bench at a No Frills 2 km away from our place. 2 km is a long distance for my grandfather. The cop brought him home around 12:30 am. We were all so relieved. He was confused due to the lack of food and water. But we got him settled, made him food, gave him water and medication.
Of course my grandmother was a mess but I gave her, her anti-anxiety medication even though I think the dose on that is not even high enough to get her to sleep tonight.
The cop that spoke the same language as us told my grandfather to not wander off and to stay close to home. He also told my grandfather about the bracelet that those with AD usually wear for identification. The messed up part is my grandfather wasn't planning on going far so he left his wallet at home, with all his identification and money. Thank God he was found and he's doing well. I honestly hope this never happens again but with AD, you never know.
It's just been a hectic, overwhelming and annoying day. I honestly can't recall a moment during this day where I was content and happy. Clinicals was just some next craziness that I don't even want to think about, but the bright side today was basically my last day. The gym was meh but I had my abs/back class so you know how awkward that went. Another thing I learnt today. Never limit yourself and think that this is all there.
We were so overwhelmed with the kindness that the neighbours did to chip in and help. Same with the services provided by the York regional police officers. I know it's their "job" but honestly it means alot. We all sat there worried of the possibility of how we would find him. I know as we all sat there silently we were scared that something may have happened to him like what if fell in the pond and drowned. The messed up part is now that I think about it, is that that's how my cousin passed away by drowning. :S And then finally when speaking to an officer I heard a message on his walkie talkie, he then explained to me they found him. He was sitting on a bench at a No Frills 2 km away from our place. 2 km is a long distance for my grandfather. The cop brought him home around 12:30 am. We were all so relieved. He was confused due to the lack of food and water. But we got him settled, made him food, gave him water and medication.
Of course my grandmother was a mess but I gave her, her anti-anxiety medication even though I think the dose on that is not even high enough to get her to sleep tonight.
The cop that spoke the same language as us told my grandfather to not wander off and to stay close to home. He also told my grandfather about the bracelet that those with AD usually wear for identification. The messed up part is my grandfather wasn't planning on going far so he left his wallet at home, with all his identification and money. Thank God he was found and he's doing well. I honestly hope this never happens again but with AD, you never know.
It's just been a hectic, overwhelming and annoying day. I honestly can't recall a moment during this day where I was content and happy. Clinicals was just some next craziness that I don't even want to think about, but the bright side today was basically my last day. The gym was meh but I had my abs/back class so you know how awkward that went. Another thing I learnt today. Never limit yourself and think that this is all there.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
future husband
lol i feel like i heard this somewhere before.
patient: I feel sorry for him
me: for who?
patient: for your future husband! you'll probably tell him what to do like you telling me. You come in, boss me around and go "we're going to do this. now do that. do this do that"
me: yes, i feel sorry for him too but I always boss with good intentions.
patient: I feel sorry for him
me: for who?
patient: for your future husband! you'll probably tell him what to do like you telling me. You come in, boss me around and go "we're going to do this. now do that. do this do that"
me: yes, i feel sorry for him too but I always boss with good intentions.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
notes in a bottle
Ever thought about what you would write in a letter? This letter will be rolled up, placed in a glass bottle with a secure lid or cork and thrown in the the lake/ocean/sea. This letter may be read by someone far far away or close by. Either way it can be a total stranger or someone you know. What would you write?
Something inspirational?
Something random? (I like picking my belly button and smelling my finger)
Something irrelevant? (my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard)
Something inspirational?
Something random? (I like picking my belly button and smelling my finger)
Something irrelevant? (my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard)
Monday, August 1, 2011
find your love
The worst thing about crossing a line is when you don’t know, you already have.
Doing some last minute cramming before the test on wednesday. Listening to some Drake. I've opted for the caffeine. *sigh* I've had one cup my breath has that coffee aroma and after taste and don't get me started on my stomach. bahaha Whatever to keep me focused I guess?
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