wow

Today was not a good day, spent a majority of the morning in bed. Until I got really hungry, it's not even that I'm lazy. I just don't want to get out of bed. It's funny I recognize what I am doing and how I need to change myself or else I'm going to never get out of this hole.
I got up, went downstairs in a bitter mood to eat. I was putting myself food when there was only one spoon of veggie curry. I broke down...I walked to the stairs, my mom was sitting there because she saw me go downstairs. I looked at her, broke down started crying and said "there’s no vegetable" It seems kind of comical now to childishly cry over something like that. But my mom very well knew I was not in a good mood. So she came and fixed my food :) hugged me and said "One day I am going to see you going to work at Sick Kids" (I’m so grateful for her… and that is an understatement). I knew it was best not to stay home, I was going to sit there dwell on the past, the future, the present and on him.
My jaw dropped and I sat there with my mouth for I don't know how long. I stared at my mark in disbelief. Health Assessment was a bitch. Preparing for the exam was a bitch. Waiting outside the classroom to write the exam was a bitch. Writing 25 short answer (85 marks) health assessment exam was a bitch. Talking and mumbling to myself as my professors stared at me was a bitch (no exaggeration I looked crazy).
My mark wasn't excellent but it was better than I expected. I'm shocked and proud at myself at the same time.
On a day to day basis so many good things happen to us, which goes unrecognized. The good things that happen to us through alot of effort and work is highly praised, which makes sense. It's been a long time since I felt good about myself. But seeing my mark, well that my friends was my lorezpam for the day. I’ve begun doubting my sanity.. but hey there's gotta be something good with me if I made it through that health assessment exam successfully right? :)

Rihanna- Love the way you lie pt. 2

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

it's a start, it's a mess

I fail to remember that when the shit hit the fan... you didn't pick up a mop to help clean up.

You were once the guy who sat by me in the emergency as I passed blood clots through my urethra, you were once the guy I cried on when I felt like my whole world was collapsing because I did not get into nursing, You were once the guy who came with me to colleges to get into a school on such a short notice, you were the first person to give me the news I got accepted in nursing at Seneca when I was walking to the subway after SickKids, You were the first person to tell my mom I got into nursing at Seneca and restored some hope in her, You were the one who helped decided on where I should go, You were the one who gave me the neck massages when we studied at utsc and I was stressing for anatomy, you were one who tested me on anatomy and phys. asking me questions as if I was on a game show, you were once the guy who I sat on the phone while on the toilet, you were once the guy who I confided in all my secrets with, you were once the guy who knew all my insecurities, you were once the guy who spoiled me with gifts even though I RARELY asked and objected to the idea...
but you were also the guy...
who used my past against me even though I was honest with you, who used my secrets against me even though I was open and trusting, who would get drunk and start petty arguments with me, who would get jealous for the smallest things when you know the end of the day we go to bed talking to each other, who compared me to another girl because maybe I just wasn't fuckin' good enough, who accused me of cheating when I was nothing but honest, who demanded me to get rid of all his stuff because you didn't want me having it, who decided it was okay to do things that went against my trust,
You are the guy who assured that I will never trust another person again with my secrets. You are the guy that made me second guess on what I share with someone. You are the guy that made me keep up a defense to protect my bruised ego and self-esteem. You are the reason I devote most of my time studying and watching tv because I then have a reason to be alone and not talk to anyone. You are the reason I hate being alone but want to be anyways.

You think you're pain? It goes both way which is why...
I fail to remember
that when the shit hit the fan
you didn't pick up the mop to help clean up.
You smeared the mess all over
because for once I stopped giving you everything I could.

hair ties

are always unusually expensive (unless u get them at a dollar store). I gotta get some, I've been wearing my lil cousins for the past week. Mind you this was her hair tie when she was 4? . =\

I was driving home after I finished my exam, Single Ladies came on.. Oh looked up at the sky and said "you really love screwin' with me dont cha?"

so sick of love songs

Gosh Im so sick of studying. My friend just went to go grab food while my other friend went to the class that we're skipping. So now Im sitting here all by myself. This man in my class typical dominant tradional brown man comes and asks me a question. He doesnt even let me answer it and starts explaining to his own question. :| lol I didnt know the answer so now im freaking out. I hate it when people ask me questions before a test (even though mine is tommorow) it's makes me freak out and question my ability.
Bahh I just saw a guy check out a girl's ass. Like come on at least be subtle about it. I seriously.. need...to get a..WINTER JACKET and A FALL JACKET. I have a fall but it shrunk over time after the washes.

Jojo's photoshoot ;)

What Jojo is doing above is fanning. Turtles do this when they are (a) angry/frightened/about to fight..its a sign of aggression (b) horny/about to mate.... ==> he's afraid of the dark. When his tank light is on but if my room is dark (which it was) for him it looks dark..so he fans. No he ain't masturbatin' believe me I've seen it all :|.

Everybody like kung fu fightin heyaaaaaaaaaa!

Jojo, yous a posssssserrr :P

Jojo's wolverine pose...he looks like a fighter in this one :) His nails are coming in nice and long.
(male turtles have longer nails so they have a better grip when they *ahem* do the nasty)

Catchin' some vitamin D..mmm mmm MMM

comparisons

I'm angry at him.

Once again... I wrote a long page of shit. Ctrl A + Delete.

Why? I'm up late... studying/ breaks of grey's anatomy. Luckily I can wake up late tommorow and then I'm off to school to do..can you guess what? Study so more.