shiet

I got a new patient the other day. His BP was 155/104. Ladies and Gentlemen, as a nursing student that is the highest BP I've ever taken. :|

drug administration

Medication Order: Lorazepam (Ativan) PRN. Read drug instructions.
(PRN medication is a type of order which are given by nurses to patients on an "as-needed" basis. So this entails a nurses judgement on how much to give and how frequently.; Lorazepam is benzodiazepine which is used for antianxiety so of course it's effects is a sense of relaxation and sleepiness)

Me: OoOoOOo Lorezepam!!!! (imagine one excitedly reacting to chocolate, ice cream or their favourite treat..yah that was my voice)
Teacher: uhmm...*one eye brow raised look*
*awkward silence*
Me: *attempts to break silence* man this patient has so many drugs I'm going to be a walking drug guide by the time I'm a nurse. hahahaha...

You maybe wondering why in Gods name I'd be up at 7 am when I have no clinicals and it's a long weekend. Well my friends this is a consequence I must suffer for my procastination last night in completing my care plan which is due at 10 am today. Seriously pissed off at myself. =\

I want to stand at the foot of my parents bed and smile like the photo below of Sheldon from Big Bang Theory, until they wake to their daughter smiling at them like that with a startle. BAHAHHHAHAHAHA they created me, they have no choice but to love me.

Oh, Happy Canada Day ...I love you Canada *runs out kisses a Maple leaf tree* Oh how I wish the maple leaf tree was actually a Maple leaf player, prefarrbly Luke Schenn or Nazeem Kadri.

cracks

"We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to control the damage we've done, or thats been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage."

alone

Have the house all to myself for the next couple of hours. I did get invited to go out by a friend to this Taste of Asia festival happening in Markham but I just felt like being home and just being alone. It's a rare occasion getting the house all to myself so making the most of it. I got some Hakka food and just going to enjoy the fleeting moment of peace while it lasts :)

Anjali - Anjali anjali anjali - Ilaiyaraaja

*sigh* <3

quote

There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you'd better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you'll never understand what it's saying.

I'd really like some quiet time.

the underdog

For some reason I can't help but feel like it's just getting more competitve at our unit. It's not like our college has a limited amount of diplomas to hand out to the nursing students. I think what it is, is that the unit I'm at is a rehab unit. There is very limited amount of "acute" care patients for us to practice our nursing skills. Nevertheless, the moment there is one every pounces on the patient once we get a chance.
So I'm beginning to relate alot to George O'Malley from Grey's anatomy. He is BY FAR one of my favourite characters and I swear to you that after the character's tragic death on the show, Grey's Anatomy has not been the same. Anyways, he was seen as the underdog, the one who was weakest but deep down he had the utmost strength, knowledge and potential out of all of them. He is usually taken for granted because of his pasiveness. He proved EVERYONE wrong by performing an emergency open heart surgery in a stuck elevator. After being hurt and disappointed he became a hard ass and started standing up for himself. And that's what I started doing, when someone even the other nurses or my teachers say anything to me that is tge slightest of putdown I talk back, stand up for myself and jokingly and/or politely say what I've done to point out my contributions. I realized you have to show that you want it and push yourself out there. But why such competitiveness? Some may be motivated to better themselves whereas others might get robbed of a learning experience. BUT if you truly want it I guess you have to fight for this crap.
Anyways here's my story. My friend and I stepped in to watch a wound dressing on a patient. Me and her kind of arranged it amongst ourselves that "okay you get this patient as your new patient, while I do the wound dressing for her the 2nd week" I left the room briefly to let my teacher know we were in X patient's room watching the procedure. So we finish up and now we're in our post clinical conference meeting. My friend was talking about patient X. Now patient X, is a nursing student's gold mine. Not only does she have bear minimal weight bearing, she's got an extensive wound and IV, AND she's a sweet lady. I mean don't get me wrong, her story is heart-wrenching to listen to. But I mean for the sake of our learning experience she's an amazing patient to work with. So as we speak, you see one of my peer's hands go up. She was anxiously waving her hand up and down because she didn't want to seem like she's interuppting to talk. Anways finally she talks and asks the teacher if she can get he patient! I looked over at my friend like this :| and my other friend who was sitting beside her goes I swear you were going to take her. My teacher agrees to my peer's request and goes see you guys have to step up and take it. Then she looks at me and goes (my name ), you are always out there trying to get experience but you have to step up. I then responded: Oh I was going to do her wound dressing, I just assumed that ____ (my friend's name) wanted her as her patient for the next 2 weeks so I didn't say anything to take that oppurtunity away from. But it's like WTF?! did I know my peer was going to jump out like a ninja and the girl who did ask for the patient is set she knows her shit, she has some pretty good hands on experience from her past clinicals, she's the know it all of the class and has a shit load of my teacher's respect. Jealous? maybe a little. But it's like everytime we have to do something she jumps first. After me saying that to the teacher, our teacher wrote down all our names and jumbled it in a hat. AND SADLY the girl who volunteered to do it first was the name drawn out of the hat. C'est la vie.